about my first job

I don't feel so very proud on my first job. I feel something is "kulang". I don't think it is the pay or anything about the money. At my first month that I didn't have any job after I graduated I wanted to rush things because I don't want to feel left out. All my friends already have their dream job and I was still jobless. When this opportunity came, I grabbed it and told myself "why not? just try & see what you can do it". Without being so airy, I find it very easy.

I didn't feel the dullness that much because I met good friends there. But I still asked myself "is this all? hanggang dito na lang ba?". I'm still searching for something which the job cannot give me.